The Stupidity of Some

Never before have I seen a person become stupid over a change in their best friend. And a good change at that. She has not changed from where she was in your life. You are the one changing. You feel that you are lower on her “scale of friends”. When in the reality of it, YOU ARE IN THE EXACT SAME PLACE!!!!! How is it that you can try and accuse her of this? How is it that people in your exact same position be fine with it, but you make it seem that the whole fucking world is ending? Nothing has changed between the two of you. The only difference is that I am now in her life. You claim not to be obsessed and that you don’t need him. But the moment something happens or you feel uncomfortable, YOU GO STRAIGHT TO HIM. You are getting upset at the people whom you held close for so long. Nothing has changed but you. Not them. People become happy. They don’t always need you to do it for them. You just want to be the center of attention in their lives and now you aren’t. You are losing control. It isn’t her fault. You talk about “putting chicks before dick”, well here is a concept for you. IF THE CHICK IS THE ONE WITH PROBLEMS WITH HER LIFE, WHY GO TO THE THING CAUSING PAIN. Ever think of that. You have issues. We all have them. If it upsets you that we point them out to you then say something. But I have them, She has them. We all have them. Its called life. You make things so complicated with her that you fail to see how you smother her. She wants all of you to stay with her. Not just Ash and the others. She wants you as well. We told you to get over yourself and all you did was run and hide behind HIM. Not fix it. She is happiest with me now. So what. GET OVER IT. Nothing you can do to change it. If you decide to leave it was your own damn fault. Not hers. When you brought her your problems, it helped her. She enjoyed having them on her plate. Not that it was easy to help them. But that they were there. It isn’t that she is bringing me her problems. But that I either take them away, or there aren’t any at the moment. You need to get it through your ego. YOU ARE IMPORTANT BUT NOT THE MOST IMPORTANT. She understands what is wrong. But you aren’t getting it. You don’t understand how stupid you are being over this. We tried to balance this shit out. Solve your whole damn problem. BUT WE CAN’T BALANCE IT OUT IF YOU KEEP ROCKING THE DAMN BOAT, CAN WE? This is a two way scale you ignorant child. We can’t fix this on our own. You have to get over that she has me now. That you are still number one, But I am above you. Until you do that you are better off gone. You are an idiot for thinking that you could make me disappear now. Mabye in the beginning you might have. But now I am here to stay. And yes, I know that I said I was going to fix her and get out. But things change. Just as you have. So I don’t want to hear any shit about it. If you want to be a hypocrite, TRY LOOKING AT YOUR OWN FUCKING LIFE FIRST!

 

Hey, I want a taste
You’re a black heart devil and I can’t explain
Why I wait for your face
You’re a hotel lover on the back end deal of this race
Every night she seems to change her name
Doesn’t matter who you really are
The back room where we sip champagne
I can never seem to get enough

I ignite
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up
It’s on tonight
So hold on
Cause we’re about to… about to light it up

Hey
There’s no mistake
Cause I’m a hard time sinner
With a bullet to waste
And I’ll break… these chains
And hit the clubhouse running with the money to play
I got the whiskey running through my veins
So cut me open, add the fuel to the fire
Your daddy tells you not to play my game
But what I’m sellin’ baby she can’t deny

I ignite
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up
It’s on tonight
So hold on
Cause we’re about to…
I ignite
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up

It keeps calling my name
I can’t turn it away
We gotta pay to play
Yeahhhhhhh

Your daddy tells you not to play my game
But what I’m sell baby she can’t deny

I ignite
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up
It’s on tonight
So hold on
Cause we’re about to…
I ignite
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up
It’s on tonight
So hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up
Yeah, so hold on
Cause we’re about to light it up

So hold on
Cause we’re about to…
About to light it up

The Amazing Weekends

Every weekend is the best. Never do i want them to end.

But that isn’t the reason for this one.

I am destroying what it took me many years to build. It was good for all of….2 days….lol. But its all good. I am happy with tearing it down. More happy than I was to build it. He is rather disturbed though. Because He went from being pushed away into the back of my head to “GET YOUR ASS OUT HERE FOR HER NOW!!!” So its been fun. I am slowly tearing it down. Faster than it took to put it up. At the same time I am working on the usual. Maintaining her and our happiness, working to get our rings, keeping myself sane and in line. 

She did something that scared the hell out of me though. She went to Rae’s and crashed the four-wheeler. I just about killed someone. If she were to die or get severely hurt, it would drive the both of us insane. He would kill me and all those around me. I would let him. But she isn’t too badly hurt. So it is all good. =)

But yep, I am happy with life. Content with where I stand in it. 

Because, 

I can’t exaggerate,
How much these entertain,
A space inside my mind,
That I have tried so very hard to find,
It’s hard to comprehend,
Just where this head has been,
A pure form of energy,
That I reached and I grabbed and I pulled and I had,
And I swore, I swore I’d never get this high but look at where I am

I’m feeling more then human,
I feel Unstoppable, I think I just found my cure,
You think it’s just illusions,
Anything’s possible,
Elysium has a door,
And it’s all so unexplainable I know I don’t ever want to leave,

You sit behind your desk,
Waiting for Friday’s check,
Judging, my every word to see what,
What I’m really worth,
Well analyze numbers,
It is no wonder,
Your industry’s slipping away
Cause it’s lead by a man who had nothing to say.